I think music should be scary. Music is an exorcism. Music can tear me up inside. I always seem to feel that everything is about to cave in on me. I think that maybe music is my protection from that and in some senses it's an outlet to turn it into something euphoric: embracing the eventual decline.
I look really odd in jeans and a hoodie, it doesn't feel or seem right. I am always much more interested in reading fashion magazines. Just that sense of romanticism and escapism and the dream of it has always been quite alluring to me, as well as that sense of becoming a character through clothes.
I definitely have a real self-destructive streak.